Before I went through my book's 1st draft I made the mistake of having a friend read it. I wrote down everything that stood out in my whacked noggin and it was all true, my feelings at least. Many of those feelings, I am truly surprised they form in my brain. And it's shocking to me that they travel from my brain (even damaged, it's still in charge,) through my hands and onto paper. There were some not-very-nice things written about a very old friend and although they never would have been published the 'wrongness' that it was ever written became very apparent.
This book may never be published but the backlash I received caused me to reconsider even trying. My plan was to go through my pages to discard my own unkindness, if it added nothing to my story and I've done that. So, yes, I will attempt to get it out there. I anticipate further anger from those in my life who disagree with me or remember past events differently. I'm very sorry for that. In my book, I talk a lot about my own guilt and the things I've done that I'm not proud of. But, they are my memories and all I know.
As far as agenda's go, I have none. My true thoughts and feelings are mine and they are what fuels me. But nobody needs to know my exact thoughts unless they are productive and positive.
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